How did I miss this ?

Me + Richard Armitage

This is for all of the partners. For all of you.

This is for the partners who have no idea about our secret obsessions.

This is for the ones who know something is going on, but not what.

For the ones who see us smiling, goofily.

This is for the ones who know, and are curious. For the ones who know, and are jealous. For the ones who know, and are angry.

This is for the ones who know, and are amused. For the ones who know, and love us anyway. For the ones who know, and love us because.

This is for the partners who listen to us bubble over with glee. For those who listen with delight, with patience, with impatience. For those who listen, period.

This is for the ones who watch Richard Armitage on screen with us. Once, or many times. And for the ones who…

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Meeting Richard Armitage | Rencontrer Richard Armitage

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Like everyone in the Armitage Army, I couldn’t have been more delighted to read the stories (especially the very detailed one by ItsJSforMe 🙂 ) of fans meeting Richard. It may be stupid to write, but I’m really happy for them. I was excited, amazed and thrilled by what I read. I had the impression of being with them, and experience first hand a certain reality. A reality including somewhere on the other side of the world the man who has been occupying my thoughts way too often  for almost 1 year. Even though I’m very curious of who he is , I’ve accepted that my role as a fan is to never really grasp him as a person. Therefore, I rarely think of Mr A as himself, but rather as his fantasized version, as a character.

To read these encounters confronted me with his reality. Suddenly he became tangible, palpable, so far and yet so close. While I’m writing these words, he’s living his life in this foreign country, he’s working, he’s laughing at a joke, sharing a good meal, or yawning because he’s been up  since 5am. It’s not Richard Armitage, the actor, neither his characters that I had in mind while reading these recap, but a man, just a man, and almost a young man with this strangely boyish look . A man I could, you could cross at an unpretentious party, at the counter of a pub drinking a beer or at a park jogging, etc. In short, Richard.

I don’t know if I’m expressing myself correctly. What I’m trying to say is that I had a sense of identification so intense that I gasped. Even though my brain was screaming that I was in front of my computer and not in front of Richard, my body reacted as if this was the case. And that’s when I realized something. Something I touched in my questioning of the interest to possess an autograph from Richard Armitage. Just the use of the word « possess » sums it all : if we can’t « possess » him, at least we can « possess » a part of him.  Truth be told, I don’t want to meet him. This is not a « maybe » or « why not » or a « this is unlikely, however. » I have no desire to meet him. And if  by a pure miracle he found himself on my way, I’d turn back to avoid him. I had considered the idea that the most likely way to see him with my own eyes would be at a premiere or a ceremony, where I would be far away from me, drowned in the crowd and making no effort to get closer to him.

I do not want an autograph. I do not want to meet him. I do not want to be photographed next to him or even just take a picture of him. And yet I consider myself a fan. And yet I was overwhelmed and overjoyed at the idea that some of us have had the chance to meet and talk to him. Once again I wonder what that makes of me and what it says about me. What kind of fan am I to try to escape at all costs the object of my affection? It’s not shyness. I’m introverted, but not shy, and my hotheaded side can make me do really crazy things. I don’t think it’s because I’m too self-conscious. The media like to give caricatural and distorted image of us. However, I’m not ashamed to be a fan. At most, I wouldn’t want to disturb him, not to force my admiration on him because I respect him too much for that. But I know that this is still not the real reason.

I’ve always been honest here, I’ve always tried not to censor my thoughts and feelings  since for me the purpose of a blog is to let go the pressure. What’s the point of writing here if I can’t write what I really think? Then fine, allons-y. If I make the effort to consider the problem,  there are two reasons that lead me to have a position as categorical about meeting with Mr A. First, as I’ve already written here, my heart doesn’t beat for him but for his fantasized version (see fantaisies 1 and 2) . He provides his looks, a few character traits showing through in his interviews. So it’s about 20% of the man he is in my head. The remaining 80% are filled by my desires, by my thoughts and cravings. Richard Armitage is not my fantasy, he only gives me the shell for shelter. In a way, I am my own fantasy. With this in mind, it makes perfect sense that I lack interest in meeting him. At most to admire his looks 🙂

The second reason is much simpler. To meet him is to take the risk of being disappointed. It’s my reality vs his. The latter being fundamentally different from mine, I know that in any case I would be disappointed. Not because of my sudden realization that Richard is an asshole full of himself (there’s little chance it’s the case) but because a meeting with him will never happen the way I want. It’s all or nothing with me. If I can’t have everything I want, if I can’t have him as a whole (understand what you want to understand 😉 )  I’d rather not have him at all. I don’t want crumbs. I don’t belittle any people seeking contact, on the contrary, I could repeat it a thousand times, I’ve loved to read and see photos of these meetings. It’s just not for me.

So yes, I am a fan. Demanding, surely. Neurotic, without a doubt. But lucid and very self-deprecating.

And you, would you like to meet Richard Armitage ?

Edit : checking my post one last time before publishing it and guess what, one of the Cbeebies stories has just started to play 🙂

Edit 2 : And another fan gets to meet Richard ! 

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All I want to write about is this lovely fan encounter with Richard we’ve all heard about 🙂 And especially about his looks, about his outfit, because I can’t help it (grey t-shirt + jeans +boots = drop dead FrenchAA). This picture has already been posted on Tumblr, I’ve reblogged it without knowing if I had any right to do so (I’m sorry if I’ve invaded anyone’s privacy) but I won’t post it here until further notice. Which explains why I’m frustrated. I can’t speak of his clothes without showing you a picture, right ?

So here I am, grinning, genuinely happy for this lucky fan with a really understandy hubby, dazed by how young and thin Richard looks in these pictures.

 

Tout ce sur quoi j’ai envie d’écrire est cette merveilleuse rencontre entre Richard et une fan dont nous avons toutes (et tous) entendu parlé. Et en particulier sur son apparence physique, sur sa tenue, parce que c’est mon truc (un tee-shirt gris + un jean+ des boots = une FrenchAA raide morte ^^) Cette photo a déjà été postée sur Tumblr, je l’ai rebloggé sans savoir si j’avais le droit de le faire (je m’excuse si outrepassé les limites de la sphère privée de qui que ce soit), mais je ne la posterai pas ici avant d’avoir plus d’informations. Ce qui explique pourquoi je suis frustrée. Je ne peux pas parler de ses vêtements sans vous montrer un photo, n’est-ce pas ?

Me voici donc, souriant comme une idiote, sincèrement heureuse pour cette fan chanceuse dont le mari est très compréhensif, hallucinée par l’apparence juvénile et la minceur de Richard sur ces photos. 

SDCC styling issues 2/2

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My first post has generated several reactions, some agreed with me, others did not, looks like we don’t all have the same fashion sensibility after all, which spices things up a bit 🙂 To return to some answers  I’ve made ​​in the comments, of course, negative criticism contained in part 1 were written with all the admiration I have for Richard. But a little tough love doesn’t hurt, it’s nice to remember that he’s a man like any other – with his styling issues 😀 – ! I understand that Richard has made efforts in the clothing department for the SDCC, and through Servetus I also learned that THE pair of jeans is Balmain’s biker, knowing that this haute couture house sells jeans for about  1500  € (!) Mr A has also made financial efforts. Luxury, rock, glamourous and trendy brand. Not really the words  I’d spontaneously associate with Richard, but why not ! But when with a quick Google search you realize that this pair of jeans is more easily worn by a  shrimp like Russell Brand, Zac Efron and Justin Bieber, they obviously do not have Richard’s build – and so much the better, I always prefer a man, a real one, rather than a boy – hence the fausse note. Now, on to the fun part.

Richard Armitage, being drop-dead gorgeous effortlessly at the airport.

These two pictures stir my inside. As stated in my interlude, they have an incredible effect on me, I feel that my mind is frozen, that my head is empty, unable to think. Add to this a beatific smile, this warmth in my chest and the characteristic tingling in the palms of my hands like every time I want someone… Suffice to say that I have a hard time staying focused. Let’s be brief, concise, effective! 🙂 First thing I really like in these pictures is that they were taken by fans (and/or autograph hunters but whatever). This suggests that Richard, between two planes, is dressed as he is in his everyday life . He didn’t choose his clothes for a special occasion or a public appearance, but as he would have to go grocery shopping. He’s comfortable and relaxed in his clothes and it’s showing. The impression I get looking at him is that after getting up he took the first t-shirt and jeans he had on hand to dress. He exudes a raw energy, an ease  that I love.

Here we go from head to toe. Is it me or does his hair appear shorter ? Cut or styled ? Whatever the answer, the result is much cleaner and flattering. His haircut seems more styled, like his beard although there’s always the neck area problem. His face looks thinner and therefore less puffy. I didn’t specify in part 1 that I much prefer Richard with his natural color. I associate his black hair to his characters, but when I think of him, it’s always with brown hair. This warms his complexion. Moreover, it shows how good to him is New Zealand with a slight tan that suits him very well! 🙂

I’ve read different opinions on his sunglasses, which made ​​me smile. Yes, they look my grandfather’s, but I personally love them. The shape and color, very vintage, suit the shape of his face, so for me it’s an enthusiastic yes. It’s almost surprising to see him wearing this model because I’d rather picture him with Ray Ban for example, a timeless safe bet, as many pieces of his wardrobe. He still can surprise me and it’s a good thing ! Around his neck we find the mysterious necklace that teases us even more, and the watch, still beautiful. In the accessory category, another object more risky : the backpack, more functional than fashionable and very practical when traveling. For some people, this kind of bag is linked to teenagers, as  an Eastpak autographed with your pals’s artwork – am I the only one to have had one ? ^ ^. The backpack making a comeback since spring, especially in a baroudeur style as it’s the case here.

The too tight sweater curse…

Now, let’s talk about the outfit in itself. A gray loose T-shirt with short sleeves and round neck . Why does it work? Because the shirt is not fitting. Beyond 40 years old, a man must avoid too tight T-shirt that might accentuate minor flaws (love handles, emerging potbelly, etc). Of course, Richard’s body is flawless, but even he is not flattered by a too tight T-shirt  ( see the picture above  with Mr A coiled too ). The choice of the neck could have easily gone the wrong path since he has a rather wide neck, but as it’s wider than a classic round neck, once again, it works. The shirt fine material also brings added value. Unfortunately the pictures I have on hand do not allow me to judge the cut of the jeans, but I like very much what I see in the left picture, with sexy thighs  (when I think we’ve seen Richard in shorts in the last vlog ….). The dark color with a washout that seems natural is a very good choice. In the end,  we have a casual look, with discreet trendy details. Who would have thought ? Casual, yes, unkempt, no :).

Apart from all stylistic considerations, what touches me in these photos is that Richard is exactly as he is in my fantasies and dreams. I don’t know about you, but when I see the picture on the right, I want to run my fingers along his right arm…

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Interlude

Apparently, I don’t seem to be able to proceed correctly the second part of my post because I’m way too distracted  by the pictures I’m supposed to write about. I find myself ogling in front of my screen, it’s insane 🙂 What are you doing do to me Richard ? I hope I’ll be able to articulate myself by tomorrow night.

In the meantime, here are two gifs I’ve made from Spooks series 8 episode 8. I needed to indulge myself with some Lucas tonight 🙂

SDCC styling issues 1/2

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What better way to resume blogging than a styling lesson with Mr A ? I’ve already expressed my dismay to Richard’s questionable choice  in clothes – although, if I’m really honest, the credit goes to misguided stylists unfamiliar with a lad of his stature rather than him . After a rather chaotic fashion journey – some « gems » can be found here in a conversation with the object of our affection – Richard has made ​​notable progress, especially through raiding Lucas North’s wardrobe. It was worth it, him playing in Spooks, just for that! I can’t thank Spooks’s stylist enough  for being able to instil some common sense in Mr A’s wardrobe and style. The last two photoshoots in which he participated also confirmed this change, the peak being the one for Project Magazine. Thus it is possible to dress this man without making him look ridiculous. Simple and structured cuts, tailored clothing in the good size, neutral colors, a classic style reinterpreted. Frankly, was it that hard?

From this…. to THIS.

Now let’s start with what interests me in this case: his style at the San Diego Comic Con in July. With the reappearance of Richard in public besides Peter Jackson’s vlogs (and therefore Thorin’s costume ), we could appreciate his fashion sense, or at least its evolution. Because yes, there is no doubt that, for public appearances like these, rather casual, he wears his own clothes without having received specific advice, let’s face it 🙂

Having experienced the SDCC flood live on tumblr like a 13 years old hysterical lassie (I think I could have screamed  like a Justin Bieber fan at every emergence of a new photo/video of our bearded god in that blessed day), I still retained a critical sense regarding  Richard’s stylistic choice. Now that the frenzy is – just – settled, I think I’m able to articulate my thoughts. I want to say that despite the criticism I will make, if  Mr A were to stand before me in a giant banana costume I’d always find him incredibly attractive, all negative remarks on my part do not question his degree of attraction but rather the packaging. And whether he likes it or not, whether we like it or not, he’s in the big league now and he will have to play the game by the rules.

Two outfits. Two different occasions during the weekend. Do and don’t.

Don’t versus Do.

The outfit  itself is not « wrong » but a set of details give the impression of the most unpleasant carelessness  (yes, I know, a promo marathon, jetlag, he is tired, etc. but … whatever) I’ll proceed from head to toe. First, his hair is not styled, his beard is not trimmed nor styled because yes, a beard, like hair, must be styled, especially when it’s so long. Another detail, a sexy lumberjack beard, I vote for, but not to a « fallow » look. In addition to the trimming, it’s necessary to shave the hair from the Adam’s apple and bellow  (if not to the jaw ….). A man yes,  but not a bear.

First positive thing I meet, the necklace barely visible and playing with our nerves. I’m sure I’m not the only one to wonder what it is 🙂 I only have one desire, move my hand around his neck to discover this treasure. Anyway …

You do not wear a shirt over a t-shirt, whatever the shirt, whatever the t-shirt, especially when you’ll soon be 41 years old. The shirt itself is not bad although not really suited to his body, dark, simple, a cowboy style – press buttons and pockets worked on the chest – modernized by the color and material. But it’s how he wears it which is wrong. Yet it started well with the sleeves rolled up, showing his muscular forearms and especially his very nice watch … He shouldn’t have worn a t-shirt underneath, even if  v necks  suits him very well, leaving only a button open, and especially back in his pants. Personally I’m not a  « put your shirt into your pants » maniac like my grandmother, but in a case like Richard’s with a body like his, there’s no alternative (or maybe half in half out, but not entirely out). His figure would have been more pronounced and the cut would have seemed more fitting. In the end, while watching his upper body,  I have an unkempt  (the flabby  neck and the too opened shirt ….) and bloated feeling, which is ridiculous when we know how muscular he got for Thorin !

A few words  on the watch. I love men’s watch. If there’s one thing I like to steal from men in my life, it’s their watch –  and perfume. This one is the quintessence of what I like. A black leather strap, a steel dial, simple, practical and resistant. Nothing too flashy. An excellent choice.

And now, the cherry over the cake, or should I say the essence of what doesn’t work in this outfit : the jeans. At first glance, nothing too serious, faded black jeans, rather fitting. But when I focus a little more on the beast, I start to become disillusioned. Primary concern in terms of color: while wearing shades of black seems a good solution not too risky, it is a mistake. Black T-shirt + black shirt + black jeans + black shoes, this is a definite no. You only have to look at  Serkis for a more unfortunate result. A black shirt with blue jeans, I say yes, black jeans with white/blue/pink/green/etc shirt  I also say yes, but not a total black look. I don’t ask Mr A to be in tune with the eccentricities of his colleagues (Sir Ian McKellen and Martin Freeman have shown a very personal taste and color in their outfits :)), but a little color would have made his outfit more exciting.

From left to right : bootcut, straight (or normal fit) and semi slim

Now the core of the problem, the jeans itself. I don’t think I, as an individual, hold the ultimate knowledge regarding the choice of jeans. Simply, my job, my real job is visual merchandiser for a major brand of ready-to-wear. I spend my days dressing mannequins and offer customers coherent outfits  so I think have an eye not too bad in terms of fashion. Richard has a particular body  with long legs and muscular thighs that are not easily enhanced by most cuts of jeans. So what cut for Mr A? Three choices available for him: straight jeans (with the ultimate example of Levi’s 501) which is a classic and whose cut is perfect for men with large/muscular thighs or bootcut jeans (regularly worn by Lucas North) which only works on long legs. We still lack a solution, my favorite :). The bootcut and straight jeans are classics that do not pervert Richard’s figure. What he needs is a cut that emphasizes his long legs and his adorable « peaches ». And the holy grail is the semi-slim: the jeans are slightly narrower on the thighs and ankle. Better than a straight cut and wider than a slim, the semi slim is the perfect compromise: thighs are adjusted which refines them and buttocks are emphasized without being molded. Which brings us back to the jeans worn by Mr A at SDCC, a slim, THE cut too tight that disproportionate legs (this type of jean suits only one man out of 10). This unflattering effect is reinforced by decorative stitching and reinforcements added to the thighs and knees that break the leg. Moreover, the washout is too artificial thus enlarging his  legs.

From a purely external eye, Richard looks like a 40 year old man who lets himself go a bit in that outfit. Straw!

As always, I write too much, so see you tomorrow for the good outfit 😉

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Hiatus or not hiatus

Well, truth be told, not the end stricto sensu, it’s more of a hiatus.

I’ve been posting less and less during the past few weeks. Not because my fondness of Richard is diminishing, not because the drought has stifled my passion or because I’m sick of the cute-crazy Armitage Army. Like I’ve already stated here, sometimes life happens. 

My life is happening and even Tumblr, even our beloved Richard isn’t enough of a distraction from what I’m going through. It used to be a way out, a relief valve for me, but it’s not working anymore and I don’t see the point of keeping this blog if my heart’s not in it any longer.

I don’t know for how long I’ll leave or when I’ll feel like coming back. If you want to unfollow me, I won’t mind 🙂 It was never about gaining more and more followers but about having fun with a bunch a crazy girls 😉

I’ll most certainly miss you, all of you.

Now let’s have a last RA spam before I leave !

Here’s a copy of a post I’ve made on Tumblr about a month ago. I wanted to post something like that here as well but I thought, at the time, that I’d be able to finish some of the drafts I had in my pocket. But I didn’t. And this weird situation lasted.

And here I am. Blogging again. Not saying goodbye. Not at all. But screaming loud and clear, I’m alive !

Richard has been intruding my dreams every night since Monday in all his bearded glory. I think my subconscious is trying to send me a message 🙂

My life is still not in order, but it’s getting better. For one thing, I’ve started to fantasize on Mr A again, which is a good thing in my point of view. I want it, I want my creativity back, I want to write, I want him to be a part of the many things that make me feel alive.

My english is a bit rusty, that’s what happens when you don’t write/speak one single sentence in english for weeks. I’m sorry for my franglish 🙂